Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Letter From Baby Girl

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.

I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."

Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.

He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Please be careful.


Your Baby Girl


Yes .. Abortion is killing ...... killing u r own child


...nEo... said...

hey! u know me? i'm in orkut.. got here following your profile searching for some mallu stuufs :P! any way! nice blog..and this one about abortion..i got the same letter as an email with heart breaking pics of aborted bodies...really a cold blooded cruelty it is! and..shall i add a link to your blog in my page? i think u wont mind that..:P

silverine said...

This touched me like nothing else on abortion I have read before :(

Alexis Leon said...

Really touching and very well written. I hope more people would read this. When there are many ways to prevent from getting pregnant, why be careless and abort. Nice post man…

hope and love said...

silverine told me to read this post.. i had written abt abortion too..
great post.. very touching..

Mind Curry said...

branding abortion as a big evil is saying half the truth, because legal and safe abortions have saved lives of thousands of mothers - infact abortion was legalised only because of the high maternal mortality rate. we should prevent the need for abortions by educating the youth about safe sex and contraception.

monu said...

am against abortion becasue i would say that 80% of abortion happening here cant be justified by any means... and by making abortion legal it had become something simple .. so most of the abortions happens because they simply dont want a child, and its rarely done to save the life of mother ..... nobody realise that abortion is killing a life ...and regarding educating youth about safe sex and contraception is not the only answer for avoiding abortions.. why cant we educate youth about not having sex before marriage ?.

Mind Curry said...

i agree to some of your points, but not all. making abortions legal in 1972 was done not to make the procedure simple, but at that time people went to quacks for abortion - as it was illegal then. and around that time hundreds of women died by aborting by unsafe and unclean methods at the hands of these quacks. thats why the govt legalised abortions in 1972. despite that, around 80% of abortions in india are still done by unqualified people, mostly because of the social stigma, and thereby risking the mother's life.

about your thought on youth and premarital sex, i dont want to sound like khushboo. but, the fact is it is a personal choice. we can try educating, thats different, but how effective that would be is another question. and even if you succeed, abortions happening due to the fact that the girl is unmarried is less than 25%.

my point is, if you try to make abortions illegal, we will go back to the 1970's. so the best and possibly only choice forward is education on safe sex and contraception.

godsowncountry said...


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Nice blogs